Wednesday, July 8, 2009

Slacking

I've been slacking on my blog lately but it's been a busy few weeks. We celebrated Matthew's birthday at the end of June. Hopefully I'll have pictures to share soon. Steve has been super busy and hasn't had time to process them. We had a great time and I'm pretty sure Matthew enjoyed his day. Last weekend was the 4th of July. We went to a parade in Northville then to my parents house for a bbq and campfire. It was a very nice weekend.

I got a new toy yesterday. I jumped on the iPhone bandwagon and boy, am I glad that I did. That thing is awesome! Now I see why people love it so much. Anything and everything right at your fingertips. I don't know how we ever functioned without this crazy technology. I do admit that it's sad that we rely on it so much these days. What ever happened to the simple life?

Well tomorrow is the day that I've been dreading for the past 2 months. It's my due date. I'm not sure how I will feel tomorrow. Will I be sad? Will I be okay? I've been feeling pretty good lately. I'm at peace with what happened to Andrew. No, I'm not happy about it but I'm at peace with it. There's nothing I can do to change what happened. He's gone. I can't do anything to bring him back. All I can do is look forward to the day that I will see him again. We plan to visit his grave tomorrow. We don't go there very often because we believe that he isn't there, he's in heaven but I feel like we should go for a visit. We're still waiting on his gravestone to come in. We were hoping that it would come in before his due date but no such luck.

2 comments:

Cara said...

I'm glad you are feeling peaceful...but due dates are still hard. Whatever the day brings-- allow and it know that we are here to listen to however you are feeling.

Trisha Larson said...

I'm so sorry that you are living what I have lived. Thank you for visiting my blog. I hope that it helps.

Hugs from the mommy of one angel to the mommy of another.

Trisha