Monday, August 24, 2009

Visiting The Place Where Our Nightmare Began

I had an appointment today with my OB/GYN. This wasn't my first visit there since having Andrew. A few weeks after having him, I had to go back for a follow up with my doctor. I think I was more nervous about going there today than I was for my follow up visit. I was picturing a waiting room full of very happy and excited pregnant women. Luckily that wasn't the case. Coincidentally yesterday was 6 weeks since my due date so of course I was thinking that this should have been my 6 week check up. Crazy things like that run through your mind when you suffer the loss of a baby. Anyways, I had a good visit although my body isn't acting the way that it should and it's starting to frustrate me but hopefully things will be back to normal soon.

This weekend we're heading to Erie, PA for a few days of camping. Steve's parents are meeting us there along with my parents. I'm looking forward to a nice, relaxing time. I really hope the weather cooperates and it doesn't rain. We'll be staying in cabins with no bathrooms. I'm not too crazy about that but I'm trying to be a trooper. I had thought about bringing Matthew's little potty so I don't have to walk to the bathroom in the middle of the night. I thought it was a good idea but Steve said that it was a gross idea. It can't be any more gross than peeing behind a tree, right?


Mackenzie's Mommy said...

Oh yeah. I was super uncomfortable the two times I've been back to my OB/GYN since losing Mackenzie. I'm actually shopping around for a new doctor these days, so I'm sure I'll end up in a room full of pregnant ladies sooner or later. Ugh! :( Hope you enjoy your trip!

Cara said...

Walkling back in is such an experience, different for all of us...but really not easy.

Even after eight years when I was starting the non profit and found myself back there for totally business related reasons I nearly fell apart.