Blood Clot Disorder - Check!

So I just got off the phone with the doctors office. They gave me the results of my recent blood test. They were testing my protein c level. The first set of blood work I had done showed that my level was low but that was 4 weeks after giving birth to Andrew so they weren't sure if my body was back to "normal" at that time so I had another set of blood work done a few weeks later to check my level again and I just found out that it was still low. This means that I have a blood clot disorder and the next time I become pregnant, I will have to give myself a shot 2x a day with a blood thinner which isn't really a big deal, whatever it takes to make myself and my baby healthy, I will do it.

So that brings me to the question, is that what caused his death? Did he have a blood clot that took his life? Did he die so that I didn't die? We'll never know.

I wanted to share this picture, it's similar to the pictures in my previous post but I took this one with my phone. Notice the light above Matthew's head. I'm not one to always believe in "signs" but this is one that I have a hard time not believing in. I feel that it is Andrew watching over his older brother. I hope that he stays with him for the rest of his life and helps him to choose the right paths to take and the right decisions to make.

Andrew's Memorial

Yesterday we went to the cemetery to see Andrew's memorial that was installed on Friday. It turned out really nice. We included the sailboat since that's what we were going to decorate Andrew's room with.

The memorial stone

Matthew checking out his little brothers memorial
This is a statue that was donated to the cemetery,
I'm assuming by a family that lost a baby

It was a cloudy day but as soon as we got to the cemetery, the sun came out. Thanks Andrew!

Slacking

I've been slacking on my blog lately but it's been a busy few weeks. We celebrated Matthew's birthday at the end of June. Hopefully I'll have pictures to share soon. Steve has been super busy and hasn't had time to process them. We had a great time and I'm pretty sure Matthew enjoyed his day. Last weekend was the 4th of July. We went to a parade in Northville then to my parents house for a bbq and campfire. It was a very nice weekend.

I got a new toy yesterday. I jumped on the iPhone bandwagon and boy, am I glad that I did. That thing is awesome! Now I see why people love it so much. Anything and everything right at your fingertips. I don't know how we ever functioned without this crazy technology. I do admit that it's sad that we rely on it so much these days. What ever happened to the simple life?

Well tomorrow is the day that I've been dreading for the past 2 months. It's my due date. I'm not sure how I will feel tomorrow. Will I be sad? Will I be okay? I've been feeling pretty good lately. I'm at peace with what happened to Andrew. No, I'm not happy about it but I'm at peace with it. There's nothing I can do to change what happened. He's gone. I can't do anything to bring him back. All I can do is look forward to the day that I will see him again. We plan to visit his grave tomorrow. We don't go there very often because we believe that he isn't there, he's in heaven but I feel like we should go for a visit. We're still waiting on his gravestone to come in. We were hoping that it would come in before his due date but no such luck.